Monday, July 11, 2005

Let the Fantasy BEGIN!

The fanned rooms are just part of this thatched-roofed disgustery. The place we’re calling “ours” for a spit. You see, I came here to drink booze from gutted fruits with little umbrellas falling out of them as I slip, slobbering, from my bamboo bar stool.

And hurdle my wheezing person to the sanded floor like a one-armed stroke victim.

Where I will probably chuck up some upchuck, curse some random drinkers-by and proceed to breathe REALLY heavy while entering into a sweet rum-coma. During which, I will likely be relieved of all my valuable personal belongings by the waitstaff. Good. Night.

So what the fuck do I care about the goddamn room? With its fans, fandom, and ludicrous fannery. Is that just to blow the heat around? Or is it to help disperse foul odors, the various pieces of proof required to prove what we already know happens on those unsleepables EVERY night of EVERY season? It could smell like a herpes hatchery for all I care. What would I honestly do about it? Cry?

I plan to drop my unwashables next to the unsleepable, take a brief drainer, and potentially never return until a cool twenty minutos before the bus ride of mad-regret back to that godforsaken aeropuerto. Does flypaper melt as you approach the equator or what? What’s with all the damn BUGS here? The depth and breadth of insect selection here is off the charts. I didn’t realize WHAT they were intending to include when I signed up for an all-inclusive stay.

Oh, and the marbled lobby is meant to be funny. A physical anecdote. A representation of faux fantasticalness, meant to give off the idea that you are somewhere beyond the known. Greco-Mexico or some such nonsense. It will cause brain damage if you ponder it too much. You are supposed to ignore it. It isn’t why you’re here. Honestly, how much time do you intend to dedicate to checking in? Collecting messages? Exchanging dollars for toilet paper? Seriously. It’s a well-dressed front. You’re after the depths of the back.

The back’s where it’s at.

Past the marble menagerie, and beyond the nice-talking front-people. They are from cities and towns which you are currently ignorant of, but will one day wish to visit. “They’re more real,” is what you will naively tell your future self, and anyone else foolish enough to listen. As if you have any idea what that means, or whether or not those people’s hometowns have any measure of it.

If those places were more “real”, they’d still be there instead of catering to your dumbass in this seaside stage. Not that your cardboard-bed palace by the sea is supposed to be anything beyond pure fantasy: crystal-blue waters, hamburgers with french-fries, and magical vodka in the tropics. But it must be understood that those burnt-out towns, where all these smiling faces came from, are the same type of “real” that one experiences from a gang-rape or a sharp stick in the eye. That’s the “realness” of it. Trust that you’ll come full circle on this, someday.

Past them and their mounted positions at the check-in, through the internals of the winded structure’s central hall, and out to the back. The back, where tiki-ness comes to life from the pages of pirate fiction. Where coconuts magically appear in a land which has never bred them willingly. A place where one can actually belly up to a bar in a pool next to an ocean to purchase a whole pineapple filled with pink-colored frozen-vodka-rum and sugar, because that is the fantasy promised by the ticket masters. The promise of booze to be delivered to you, the cash offerer, in the most absurd way possible. And if it were passed to you in an aluminum can in front of a tattered taco stand, you would break forth in a most tremendous riot, joined by the raging fists of dozens of slothish Midwesterners: all feverishly deep-pinked by the cancerous rays they dreamed of being cancered by, after months of slaving beneath the fluorescent warmth of modern-day share-cropping.

The splits of which are no longer the blood of the land, but the juice from the tiki-creation and the opportunity to use the words "indigenous peoples" without sounding posturing and pretentious. And the dividend is that bamboo stool which I plan to spill myself from. That, and the downward look that I am allowed to give to browned strangers who probably work far harder than I do, for far less, having to come from far further than I could ever comprehend, just to take the shit I pay to dish.

Yeppers.

So set ‘em up Jose, make it one last coconut, before I hit this patch of raked sand. I want to feel, if just for a second, the fantasy of it all. Before I remember the ridiculously fanned room that I won’t be seeing until I leave.

Because this is my vacation. This is how I vacate. Oh my, well, here we go. Pardon me, you might want to step back a few feet. Before the fantasy begins.

8 comments:

Sean said...

first world guilt
this patchword quilt
pain painted pathos
propped up on stilts

flair for the dramatic
daring acrobatic
of logic, of loss
of meaning come across

but you still the boss
still hittin the sauce
till you
toss an turn
can't sleep in this urn
ashes of cashes that once
stuffed that mattress
you just burned

vacate the violence
of vacations playin violins
so small
they almost silent

Truecraig said...

Shades of RHYME TIME (returned, again)! My brother comes correct with the mad wordness!

First word: shouts.
Because the madness that it’s about,
soon brings clout to bouts.
Because
no one ever wants-
to figure these things out.

Those sands make demands:
to fill drinks in sad-numb hands,
but the plans run dumb-bland-
where these rivers & seas meet lands.

Done the daily drudge mess,
then they’ll soak until they’re senseless,
pack it up and tap the hostess,
but the ends lend ways to be much less.

No fantasy.
No funnery.
No smiles abound, abundantly done.
No mystery.
No stunnery.
No miles around the ever-happy sun.

Because the bill matches no goods.
And the fantasy’s a played stage of ways,
to keep you tinking and tanking under the hoods,
of cursed and ill-rehearsed doomsday plays.

So.
Into other towns they march.
Picking such bit scenes,
and playing bitterer parts-
of
lives they touched by dark,
sticking to debris beliefs,
while spreading shit and claiming

art.

Truecraig said...

Yours is most beautiful, Sean.

Sean said...

thanks, bro. you were getting all lyrical in your prose so I felt compelled to repond thusly.

where the heck is everybody?

Anonymous said...

Damn how the pictures always looks good. Once you get there all you get is a shack, a grin, and a "fuck you very much".

brother nick

Truecraig said...

Sean: Any number of reasons why no one is around. Vacations, sickness, on-strike. Who knows? More than likely, people are somewhat reluctant with poetry. Also, I tend to write mostly about what an idiot I am, so whenever a sway from that trend, it might throw some people off. No harm, no foul.

Brutha Nick: I've found that most vacation spots ARE actually very nice and true to their word. The problem is what I want ISN'T the fantasy I'm asking for. I don't want vodka in Puerto Vallarta. I want whatever the hell they normally drink there. Hamburgers and fries belong here, not in my vacation fantasy. Yet, there they are, waiting at the TG-fucking-I Friday's or I-Goddamn-HOP in Thailand. That's where things go wrong, in my mind.

Glitzy said...

Maybe I will title one of my blog my posts "Disgustery and Ludicrous Fannery" as an homage to this one....
...I say maybe because my inspiration to blog has been waning as of late.

Truecraig said...

I completely understand the hiatus in blogging activity. Sometimes, one just does not feel like it. That's how it goes.

Feel free to use my invented words whenever and wherever it entertains you. You, dear Glitz, have my most humble permission.

Whoo-hoo! Too much coffee today.